The Splintering Soul

I can't really summarize the past week in words, but here I am , attempting to gather enough thoughts in sequential order, that I might recollect and decipher the most meaningful aspects of my week. And yet, I know, my splintering soul is in need of repair. I need to recenter myself, gather my wits (whats possibly left) and realize what it is that I really want to gain from my experiences in New York.

No matter where we travel in life, there is always one reoccurring dream that will interwine itself in each dream, as it waits to blossom into reality, this is the hope that we might find peace and know what it means to not only find happiness, but be humble enough to unfold its many layers of joy and understanding with others.

I have been looking to find a place to live in NYC. Okay, so maybe I didn't plan very well, it's not so much that I didn't plan well, it's that we can't predict the choas that will eter in and out of our lives. I could sit (and maybe I have been doing exactly this very thing) and complain weeks on end, but this really isn't going to change my circumstance. I am not going to find resolution, while being resistant to change. I can't expect blessings if I am mumbling under my breath about people who could be more usefull or helpful if they just.....

Just not enough time to worry.

I know that I've been somewhat silent lately, but I've been trying to listen. It's not always easy. So many times, I have refused to listen, and it's made me an impossible person for others to want to be around. I'm not sure why I find it absolutely necassary to tell you that the art of listening envolves one major and minor component. Speaking is the minor component, listening is the major component-both will determine whether or not we will enounter life as a blessing or a curse.

Do not be discouraged/ Keep your chin up/ Don't be afraid to express the parts that might appear less beautiful/ The splintering, though, awkward and uncomfortable, allows everyone the opportunity to see that we have the potential for so much more than we ever thought we could muster....